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Wednesday, October 10, 2007
What's wrong with me?
I don't know what happened. Could it be exam stress? No way! That can't be it! Never have I once said "STRESS" cos of exams!

My head hurt, my thoughts swivelled around. I was particularly taciturn today. Yet at the same time, it seems I was easily irascible. How could that be possible? I didn't converse so naturally nothing could have ired me. But I was feeling just that.

I believe bad things should not be raked up, but rather best begone. Thus, my habit is to always forget lousy experiences in the blink of an eye or cast them aside. This solution was good till I saw that these thoughts came back easily too, and especially when I'm feeling down.

Today was an example, I felt grouchy. Mainly because all the bad things simply find its way into my head. That was the main reason I left aiai & erzi at mac and went home on my own. I guess that saddened aiai.

I felt bad, really bad. I do not believe in sharing my problems because doing so, would simply be a recollection of thoughts that I hate. Though keeping my problems to myself is something that many would not have encouraged, I firmly believe that, that should be the way. However, with a little addition. that is to get it out of my head as soon as possible. Ahh... how I wish all my problems would disappear with just a snap of my finger.

Aiai's day was probably spoilt by my peevish attitude. I hate knowing that this actually happened. I'm sorry. Forgive me.

-Why should I ever share my problems with someone else? It'd only made that person feel sad alongside me.
-Why can't I keep my peevishness to myself, the way I knotted problems in my heart?

~ { 8:20 PM }
my thoughts, my rants as well as my memories .